Unattainable, Unrestainable, Undetainable....?
Lacking words for the act.
That set this life of mine off track.
Wishing I could get my values back.
I just left them on the floor.
Just outside your door.
When I walked in that day.
All my errors were well on their way.
Why could I not let go.
The feelings that I knew before.
I had it bad my head was trapped.
Rapped around that simple act.
Let go breath it in.
I did so my sanity could come back.
But here I am once again.
At that door begging to come in.
I want the pain I think I need it so.
The door squeaks open and there you are.
Like a friend you let me in.
Welcoming me back to my place.
On the table or in a cloud.
It does not matter I have you now.
Dearest pain why do you love me so.
The way I feel! I lack! I NEED!!!....
That fix OH pain please give it to me.
I NEED IT, I LACK IT, CANT HACK IT!!!!.
Why do I want back into all the pain.
The swirling feels all that guilt and shame.
I guess it don't matter to you oh pain.
You will always be the same.
A silly powder I really don't need.
But then again your my pain all I see.